[Destiny 'Silverwing' Andre]

1530
Stargate Command
Colorado Springs, Colorado

Destiny Andre had to stop herself from running down the halls at the news just received. It was news that would make one certain dear friend very happy. The hazel eyes of hers glanced in the passing rooms, frustrated whenever they came up with everyone but the person she was looking for. It had been a few months since the female had seen James Calmara and excitement didn't even seem to be the right word for all she was feeling. James had always been a dear friend since meeting him back at Delta; more than a dear friend. During those dark times, he was the rock this major had leaned on. Being brainwashed by the Nidhogg was still a sore spot to talk about. The reason that this young woman had stayed back at Stargate Command for years. Sure it was fear always holding her back from going on other expeditions, but it was understandable. Destiny knew that she was recovered from that time, but there had always been that subtle doubt in the back of the mind. Lies saying the moment she stepped out, something could happen. Though whenever those lies seemed to surface, there was James always confronting them with truth. That was the main reason this female fell so hard for the Sergeant. As wrong as it was for their line of work in the military, it was almost unavoidable. After how deep their friendship went with him always being there through that dark time, it would be more shocking if feelings didn't arise.

Turning down the corner, Destiny stopped outside a door, finally glance the figure of the person she had been searching for. Standing outside, the young woman let herself fade into memories; memories of the times the two had together. She still remembered when the talk of feelings were brought up. A crimson color splashed on the cheeks of the major thinking of that day. The kiss had come out of no where, and all she wanted to do was have the floor swallow her up. Thank god James had admitted his own feelings, but that still didn't stop the embarrassment. From there, the friendship blossom deeper in a whole new way. It was always hard to find time for the two to be together; the reason the major had cherished the moments they did have, but they were short lived. The distance of galaxies had taken a toll on the two and mutually decided to just remain friends. Even if they both had agreed, and still kept in close contact, that didn't stop the brunette from turning off the feelings she had for that man. There had only be one other time that Destiny had felt this way towards someone. It was another young man from the Delta expedition; Kevin Phillips who was also still a dear friend. She had felt this deeply for him at one time too; the reason she knew exactly how she felt with James. Did that make everything easier? Oh heck no! If anything, it made it all even more confusing. That was one thing the Major was always bad about. Give her anything with wings, anything that flies, anything that involved the military, and she knew exactly what to do. It was breaded deep in her DNA. It was in coursed through her veins; the reason she would retire here at a right old age. Military, that was easy. When it came to matters of the heart, actually telling someone how she felt, or in this case, still felt? Yeah that was a whole other story. The only three people who could really drag that out of this  brunette was her daughter Serenity, her sister Azaela and her best friend Ayden. Beyond that? Good luck. Thankfully, those feelings wouldn't be brought up today, or ever. It was set in Destiny's mind, that ship had sailed with James. They had tried, but it wasn't meant to be. That still didn't stop the continual what ifs to surface every now and then.

Destiny slowly stepped into the room, coughing slightly, letting her presence be known. She remembered James mentioning he was going to be around more often for awhile. There was a new expedition starting up, one that he was going to be apart of, and everyone was getting ready for it around here. The reason for the excitement from this female. After tones of encouraging from the higher ups, Destiny addressed the Admiral of the expedition; only to come to find out he was planning to talk to the pilot as well. The Major had just come from the meeting sealing her spot on the new Vedas Expedition, and there was only one person that she wanted to share the news with first before anyone else. "I know we said we would meet up later, and I know you're probably in the middle of something important, but I kind of wanted to share something with you." This was something the pilot could never help; rambling. A bad tendency she had when it came to nerves or excited; insert both at this particular moment. "Remember how you've always been encouraging me to step away from the SGC? Remember how you've been telling me about this new expedition you're going on? Well, meet the newest member of Vedas.' A wide grin crossed the female's face. It felt good to be saying she was going off world again. It had always been hard watching everyone leave for an exciting new world or galaxy. There had always been an ache to join them, god knows she had been asked million of times, but fear always been the factor holding her back. Not this time. This time, she was going to be joining them, and there would always been a familiar face on the team as well. That made it all the more easier.

Destiny rocked back on the heels of the boots, waiting for James' reply. "Oh and Hi by the way." The brunette waved awkwardly, tucking a strand of hair behind the ear. The seconds ticked by as she waited, hoping the reaction would be a welcomed one. Sweat started to appear on the palms as the young woman tucked them into the pockets of her pants. Thank you nerves for striking again. Got to love when they come at the worse time. she thought, biting the bottom lip. Another nervous habit. Why did the seconds always tick by closer when you're waiting for something. Never ceased to amazing this pilot.

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[James Calmara]

1530
Stargate Command
Colorado
Earth

Back on earth and back under the mountain  in Colorado again. Calmara had spent the last month several hundred miles and two states away in Nevada. Putting the newest intake of deckcrew through there paces in the hanger of a nearly complete battlecrusier. A whole new crew for a new ship, for a new Expedition. That was the engineers real reason for being back, preperation for a new challenge, a new galaxy. Calling time on his involvement in the Delta Expedition had been a wrench. He had friends there, he'd been on the highs and lows that it had entailed. But the time was right to close one chapter and start a new.

There was one extra reason he was glad that preperations had taken him back to earth and to the SGC in particular. Destiny Andre. Despite the distance and small amount of time he spent with her, Des, was his closest friend. So nearly more than that, but their respective duties put a wet flanel over that. Still they were meeting up later, some catching up needed to be done, over a good meal of course. Through the haze and shower of sparks the grinder neared then edge of the metal plate, Calmara considered how to slot in a suggestion of joining the coming Expedition. As the grinder bit through the last of the metal he shut it off lifted the face guard and inspected the cut. The cough caught his attention and he turned lazily, sincerly hopeful it was not the arrival of another stack of paperwork.

There she was. Destiny, in the flesh standing in the doorway.

Taken aback at the unexpected visit he let a little smile crease his face as she launched into a little ramble, the mention of something to tell him first caught his attention. He nodded hopfuly at the next two retorical questions while plucking the face guard off and setting it down. It took a second but it sunk in she had just announced herself as being a part of the Vedas Expedition, he smiled even wider. "Hey too you as well, Des. That's. .....fantastic, properly, wow!!!" He beamed, sliping the gloves of he took a step towards her, quick check no ones around, "if ever there's an excuse for a hug its news like that." He wr**ed his arms around her loosely, just for a moment or two, a note of caution in the back of his mind wouldn't allow him to linger.

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[Destiny 'Silverwing' Andre]

1531
Stargate Command
Colorado
Earth

As James turned around, Destiny felt the heart of hers skip a beat. He shouldn't still have that affect on her. He shouldn't make her a bumbling fool whenever they were in each others presence. He shouldn't still be sending tingles up and down the spine whenever he touched her, nor melt into a puddle whenever in his arms; even if it was always for a brief moment. No these feelings, these sensations, shouldn't still be coming over her, especially since they were just friends. That's all they were suppose to be; nothing more and nothing less. As much as it ached, that's all they were suppose to be. So why were the yearnings, feelings, wantings always seem to flood over her whenever they were together? Sometimes it was more than one could bare, but would put up with it because he was the best friend she had. The young woman could count on one hand how many people were trusted enough to be called that, and James was at the top of the list. Seeing that smile of his, it took all the Major could do to not pounce him in kiss. Hold it together Des. Keep to together. Stay strong. You can do this. Just push everything else aside and focus on being friends. Those were the thoughts that the brunette had to keep repeating over and over again. Otherwise, who knew what could possibly happen. Once again proof that when it came to matters of the heart, it was like throwing her into a brand new game where the rules weren't explain. If they were, it had to be in a code form because why else wouldn't she have gotten it by now.

A soft smile broke over Destiny's face hearing James' reply. Eyes went wide when his arms wrapped around her in a loose hug. The young woman rested the head on his chest for a moment, taking in the feel of what it was like to be back in that familiar embrace. It was moments like that the Major took back and replayed in the silent moments alone. Moments were she dared to think about the what ifs and let the fantasies run wild. Moments where the deepest yearnings and desires of the heart were allowed to be release. Moments that no one else knew about, not even Serenity; the daughter she shared everything with. Okay almost everything because she was only sixteen. There was only so much a mother could share without scarring the poor teen for life. The fact that Serenity was sixteen was still hard to get over, but those were thoughts she played alone as well, and wouldn't be focused on during this valuable time with James. Taking a small step back, Destiny reluctantly, slowly, removed herself from his embrace. The moment was over too soon, as they always were. The female did the best she could to cloud over any disappointment and look normal. "I thought you might like to hear that. You were the first person I wanted to share the news with. Just don't tell Serenity that. Don't think she would be happy with that." A small smile crossed the pilot's face, as the strand of hair fell back across the face. That was the last time she would get the bangs cut that short. If the hair couldn't be pulled back in a pony tail, or tucked behind the ear, it wasn't worth it in her mind, especially since you had to keep the hair up in bun if on duty. One of the many rules this female hated about the military, but put with none the less. There was no way in hell a short pixie cut would be done to this hair.

Glancing over James' shoulder, Destiny looked at the work he had been doing. "Is this part of getting ready for the voyage?" asked side stepping to walk closer to the table. In the brunette's mind, it was just a bunch of mess. Some how this all went together to have something to do with flying. How? Well that's where James, or people like him, came in to do what they did best; put the machines together. Destiny didn't know anything about building. Give her a tool and it would be hopeless, but give her something with wings? Well then stand back and be amazed. That was the reason she was a pilot. Nothing beat being up there in the sky. No one could touch you. Nothing could reach you. It was just you up there alone in the world and there was no better feeling. "Are you excited? Do you think it will be like Delta?" Moving some his stuff aside, the pilot hopped up onto the table, sitting there smiling. Delta. A place that use to be called home, and in some ways still was. Depp friendship were formed there, as well as rough missions. A flashback to the time being brainwashed flashed through her mind, pulling the female into its depths. Even if it had been years later, there were still moments; like this one. There were still nightmares from time to time. No matter how much the Major worked through, there would probably still always be small triggers and moments that would pull her away. The counselor the pilot had been seeing over the years always reminded her of this. It was a hard truth to swallow, but would had to be dealt with, like now.

Taking a small breath, Des shook the visions away, locking gaze with James once more. It was going to be great seeing him more often again. Well at least more often than she was currently seeing him. They might be on the same expedition, but that didn't mean there would still be a lot of time. Thank you Stragate missions. "Would you like me to leave you be so you can get back to work? Don't want to be a distraction." The pilot secretly hoped he would say no. Every minute with James was special and would always take full advantage of. Even if it probably wasn't the greatest idea to be alone with him on base. Too many temptations. If anyone saw her, an officer, this close with an enlisted, not good. The jobs would be on the line, but at the same time, Destiny didn't care. She was happy after getting that news and was planning to share it with the most important in her life next to Serenity; even if he didn't know it.

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[James Calmara]

1532
Stargate Command
Colorado
Earth

Her head resting on his chest even for tue shortist time was a reminder of moments past, of the what if's that seemed to follow them around. Her head resting on his chest even for tue shortist time was a reminder of moments past, of the what if's that seemed to follow them around.  Still there assignments had coincided at least, for the first time in years, that meant somthing to him, remaining friends and only friends was good enough, it had to be, for now anyway.

He smiled at the mention of Serenity, "well I wont be telling her, thats for sure. Calmara had come to view the little lady as a neice and to his mind Des having Serenity to look out for was a big help in the woman's recovery. "Serenity was probably first to know when you made Major, so that even's things on the news front."

"Careful with them, they're precision cut panels you're tossing around casualy, which will end up being UAV wings, honestly these pilots." He gave a mock exclimation and exasperated tone and a toss of the head, which he soffened by turning both into a warm smile. "They're demo pieces for a course part, UAV construction and maintenance... He shifted a close as he dared but fought the urge for anything more, returning instead to what he was up to. " I'm putting a new deck crew through their paces. New 304 needs a new crew and a bit adaption in the way they're used too operating. We're back here doing a UAV work through. Crusiers are using them more and more for recon tasks. A UAV are more of a stealth option than a 302, I know the stick jokckys would say its not as good, but if theres a chance to lessen the risks in our game, I'm all for it." Flight operations and such were topics the engineer would gladly talk about all day long. It was good to have someone close who shared that interest, plus it was a usefull side-step topic when one of them felt a little uncomfortable with other issues.  

"You know me always up for a new challenge and new horizons. Find a new pack of trouble to get myself into. We've got a lot of new blood as always, but some experienced and well known faces to guide, likely why you were chosen in fact I suspect you name was always on the list of candidates, the higher ups are probably sick of the same old mistakes being made cos of lack of experience. Which is why they bring in the likes of me and you this time. Calmara responded with a wider grin, gate travel was his life now, cruiser duties were exactly that duties, its going though the gate he lived for, and now what made things ten times better was a his closest of friends was coming along once more. The engineer took a full advantage of the opportunity to give Des a few few words of pick me up encouragment, that she had made the right call in volunteering.

"You just got here, and while you maybe a distraction, but a welcome one I can live with." He returned with an amount of affection clear in his voice, the mention of Delta had obviously dragged the unpleasantness she had endured back up again. "What about you, I know your in, but honest thoughts on what might be ahead?" Calmara ventured carefully but definitely as he pushed some of his gear aside and pushed up and sat in the edge if the bench beside Des.

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[Destiny 'Silverwing' Andre]

1533
Stargate Command
Colorado
Earth

Destiny could help but smile at James rambling about the work he was doing. It was all over the head for this female, but it was still cute to watch and listen. He got the same joy she did when it came to flying. If the Sergeant chose to talk about his work for hours, Des wouldn't mind. One, it was time together, and two it was just amazing to watch his face light up. "I'll remember that little comment about pilots." The pilot smirked then once again let James ramble, allowing herself to get lost in his voice and the words. It was all Greek to her but at the same time, beautiful, if that even made sense together. "I trust you. You are the one making sure to keep me safe up there. If you say it's better, I believe. I hope we get some new amazing ships in this new galaxy. That would be so exciting.' Taking about being in the air again brought a skip of joy to this female's heart. Sure she had been up since returning to the SGC, but it wasn't the same of having one that was yours on an expedition. On Delta and on the Ida Task Force, there was always a 302 to take up. There was easy access for one to fly whenever. Back at the SGC, you could go a year without seeing the inside of a 302 or anything in the sky. Yes, the thrill of being near those babies was more than she could handle right now.

Hearing James' reply, Des nodded taking note of a bit closer he was. In this mind, it wasn't close enough, but they were still on base. Plus, who knew if those feelings were even that deep still. Time changes people. Even if they said they would tell each other if they started dating someone else, there was still that doubt. Smiling softly, the pilot tried to fight back a blush but knew was failing miserably. "Thanks James. That means a lot. It's going to be hard not to compare to Delta, but I need to remember they are two different expeditions. Though, it will be weird not seeming some of the familiar faces around. Well, other than one of course." The major locked eyes with James, allowing herself for a brief moment to get lost in them. They were the eyes that had see this female at her worse. He was there for her like no one else had been. He had listened, comforted, and given counsel that helped heal this soul that had been torn apart. Destiny didn't even want to think where she would be if they hadn't meant. She still could remember the day they met like it was yesterday. The day in that hanger bay was one of the best days ever. It was the day she had met James; a man who not only was her best friend, but someone who had stolen this heart completely. If only there was a way for him to know that those feelings were still burning brightly; if it wasn't too late.

Another color of crimson splashed across Destiny's cheeks. One because of the comment, and two, of the affection that comment was saturated in. Was there still hope? Was that the hint that was needed? It caused the pilot's heart to skip an extra beat. Maybe she wasn't too late after all. What a miracle that would be. Though, the young woman wouldn't let hopes get too high. If that wasn't the case, and she was misreading things, it would be a pain blow to take. "You know me too well James." The brunette sighed staring at the ground for a moment swinging the legs gently. "I'm not going to lie. I'm scared James. I want to know. I'm excited to go. It's time to go, but at the same time, what if that happens again? You can't guarantee you won't ever be a POW again. What if a flashback hits at a time my teammates need me most. You know those still happen. Not frequently, but still. I'm scared that it all will come flooding back and I'll regress back into the fragile woman I was years ago when you first met me." There. It was spoken out loud. The words that she had been scared to admit to herself. Running her hands across the edge of the bench, Destiny brush the side of the hand against James' without fully realizing. Being so focused, the pilot didn't have it register. Maybe then she would notice the jolts of electricity that was coursing through the body from their hands gently touching.

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[James Calmara]

1533
Stargate Command
Colorado
Earth

Calmara paid close attention to how Des responded, both verbally and non-verbally, as any good friend who cared would and should. He nodded but shruged at the same time as the pilot spoke about the lingering after affects of her ordeal. He could never and would never admit to fully understanding what she went through. But he observed what effects it had on Des and that was bad enough, but also the fight she'd  put up to where she was, that was all he needed to know. The little splash of crimson was a sign of somthing else, that gave him hope that someday, somehow, what they had might be allowed to develop fully. But not today, to his mind, Destiny need a friend nothing more.

The engineers response was his usual truthful manner, yet seasoned with positives that she might have overlooked.  "Well yeah, this new galaxy will have its bad guys, those with out a care or any form of respect for others. Yeah ending up in enemy hands is a risk." That was the truth part now for why her experience even the one she feared could be an asset to a team she was placed with. "Fear is not always the enemy, fear of capture can make you more aware, bring your experiences to the fore and apply them to a given situation. The flashbacks may hit you, but what will come as well is how deep you dug and that you did come through it, that can be a source of strength." The touch had Calmaras eyes darting for the door. As it happened they were behind a half open door which obscured the view to the hallway beyond. The little cover it gave made the engineer dare for more, pushing fingertips up to and under the pilots palm, working his hand under hers.

[Destiny 'Silverwing' Andre]

1534
Stargate Command
Colorado
Earth

What Destiny had experienced being brainwashed during those five months of captivity was one none would ever understand. Each experience one had being a POW was always different for each and every person, though the one this pilot had gone through was almost life threatening. The only person who knew just how deeply it affected the female was James. He was the constant solid rock that been there during that dark time. The one she had admitted to about planning out how she was going to commit suicide. The one that had seen majority of all the tears. The one that had seen the affect the flashbacks had on her. Even if they had been galaxies away, James was always still there. The reason for these feelings to run deep, but it was also the reason for the fears. Still to this day, there was a slight hesitance on Samarra's part; the one Destiny had tortured as Renita. The counselor told the major, there would be some like that. Not all would be able to completely get over. You never really did, but some just choose to forget, not deal. The worse part was, there was even more underlining issues this pilot had. Another reason for being in the fragile state. Fear was the biggest enemy, but as James had put it, could be a welcomed allie. That was the thing with James. He always brought a different perspective. A perspective Destiny needed from time to time. He always seem to know just exactly how to word things. Even if he didn't at times, still was able to make up for it. The reason for wanting the friendship deeper.

Destiny nodded slightly, staring at a spot on the floor intently. "Never thought about it like that before. Good point." Nodding at the last sentence cause Andre's head to get thinking again. He was right. She had dug far and had come out the other side. What doesn't kill you did make you stronger. The reason for the phoenix tattoo on the upper left  part of her back, against the shoulder blade. It was a special tattoo because phoenix's always were reborn from ashes. They were given a new chance at life; a fresh start. The major had basically done just that. The Nidhogg had tried to know her down, but they didn't succeed. The fact that the brunette was sitting here today was only proof of that. Feeling something touch the bottom part of the hand, Andre looked down seeing James' had underneath it. For a second, the female just stared in shock and surprise. That was not a just friend move. Just friends squeezed the others as showing support. This, well this had to be something more. Right? Well there was only one way to find out. With a silent deep breath, Destiny laced her fingers with him, holding it gently, slowly raising her gaze connecting with James'. All they had just talked about vacated the mind. All that was racing through right now was oh my god. Oh my god. Oh my god! The teeth bit down at the bottom lip, pulling on the skin as a sign of nerves. Silence hung in the air because words had seemed to leave the building. The female didn't dare to ask what this could possibly mean; fearing the response. Maybe there wasn't a need to ask. Just take the moment as it was. Yeah that sounded good. Take the moment to first breathe; that was important, the just enjoy it. Relax and enjoy. Destiny held back a snort at that thought. As long as his hand was in her own, there would probably be no relaxing. Sliding as subtly as possible, the pilot inched closer, but didn't make any more moves. Thank god the door was basically covering them up. The heart was racing as Destiny just sat there, giving his hand a gentle light squeeze, unsure of what would happen next.

[James Calmara]

1535
Stargate Command
Colorado
Earth

The interlocking of fingers, the gentle pressure, then the locked gaze. Message receved loud and clear. They had rekindled something, or maybe it had never really gone away, just been put on the back burner for the time past. He felt the usual clammyness on the back of his own hand, it always seemed to bead there never the palm, but the back of his hand, one of Calmara's qwerks of nature.  

"I have missed you, really." He said eventually, which was possibly a bit dumb and very obvious,  but he said it anyway. A thought of saying somthing about what had gone by, the what if's, occurred. But he dismissed it, the past was done and judging by the present, choices made were not all that bad. "I guess feelings are mutual." He commented, another state the obvious, this time he lifted their clasped hands and shuffled up, closing the gap between them, they'd been this close before.

This time things felt different, that internal discipline so ingrained from years in the air force was working over time against honest feelings that wanted to take control, so far it was an even fight, he was walking a line but managing to keep himself from inappropriateness while on the base. For both of their sakes. "At least we'll be in the same galaxy for a bit. Gives us an opportunity to....well spend time and see each other in our natural environment. Im thinking 'just friends' is several clicks behind us, but id like to think we can cope with where we are."He  added after a short silence, putting forth some of the thoughs running through his mind at this time. His gaze alternating from the back of the door, to their feet swinging free, to Destiny's face and those brown eyes, beautiful brown eyes. "Your thoughts, Des?" He asked naturaly and without any weight behind the question, the engineer wanted the brunettes opinion, which mattered more than his own did to him at this point.

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[Destiny 'Silverwing' Andre]

1536
Stargate Command
Colorado
Earth

It was almost as if time was standing still. The world was slowing around them and all that mattered was right here right now. Destiny wanted to pinch herself because this had to be a dream of some kind. Either that or some virtual reality. Someone had to have tapped into the secret thoughts of hers. How else could this really be happening. It was way too risky. There was always visions and dreams of this moment happening, but it couldn't really be happening, could it? The young woman glanced down at the two hands, rubbing a thumb over the engineer's skin. It felt real, so that meant it was real. The heart seemed to speed up as the realization hit. This was real. This wasn't a dream. This moment was really happening. The hazel eyes connected back with James' as still words escaped. Thankfully he was saying something, but that meant she would have to reply back. Well crap! Come on Des think! Think of something to say. Don't just leave the guy hanging. The free hand seemed to start shaking at the nerves that were coursing through the body. The pilot glanced at the door, almost expecting someone to come walking through going ah HA, but at the same time, was praying they would get a few more moments alone. Obviously, this wasn't the time or place to be thinking or talking about all of this, but who knew when another chance would come again.

"I've missed you too James; probably more than you could even know." It was true. There were times it literally pained the pilot to think about the engineer. The constant what ifs, worries, and concerns, it was almost more than one could bare. Biting the bottom lip, Destiny chuckled, giving his hand another squeeze. "Guess so. Guess I can forget about asking how the love life is going; if there could be any new developments. Didn't think the new developments would be this; hope, but didn't let myself dare to think it really would be this." The brunette always secretly fantasied about what it would be like to finally be with James. At night, the wildest dreams came true because no one else was around. At night time, she was alone and was allowed to release whatever. Usually that whatever had to do with James, simply because he was the constant what if. Well, now the young woman was about to see what that what if was going to look like. There was no more wondering because it was all happening now.

Destiny listened to James, letting silence fall between the two of them before speaking. Her thoughts? Did he really want to know her thoughts? Because if they weren't on the base, the thoughts probably wouldn't be staying G, but that would mean she would need the guts to actually act upon said thoughts. Though then again, those probably weren't the thoughts he was referring to. Taking a small breath, the pilot bit the lip nervously staring at their clasped hands, finding strength in that touch. "I'll be honest, when we agreed to stay just friends, it was an agreement I hated. I've always thought of you as more than just a regular friend. I always hoped that fate would deal us another chance. I know all the rules say no. My head is screaming don't, because there is so much on the line. Our careers, our well being, Serenity for me, but my heart is saying jump. The truth James, and this might be too much, but I love you. I've been in love before. I know what it is and I know that's how I feel for you. I know we'll have to always watch our backs and really have to be careful, but for me it's worth the risk. You are worth the risk. I would kick myself if I walked out of here and didn't say that." There it was. All laid out on the table. There was no taking anything back now. Destiny slowly raised the gaze, connecting it back with James' waiting for his response. The minutes slowed once more but this time almost painfully. There was no telling what his reply would be. Sure he cared, but was he on the same level? Was he willing to risk it this much? Hopefully the answer would be yes, but one could never be too sure.

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[James Calmara]

1537
Stargate Command
Colorado
Earth

Calmara listened with interest what Destiny had to say, because her opinion mattered yes, but also he wanted to be sure he did not miss understand anything. There was however no danger of that. He nodded and started to grin as the female pilot talk of hateing 'just friends', hoping for something more, hoping for a second chance. But also of her fear of what taking that chance could mean. Then Des said it, those three little words, so simiple, but that meant so much. I Love You. This normaly steady, stable, engineer was awash with emotions all good, his heart lept and, oh yes, his cheeks took on a scarletish hue.

The engineer struggled and partiality managed to compose himself, enough to respond anyway. "I feal.....I love you, as well. With us complicated has been an understatement,  up too now. Right here right now, easy, I love you and you love me. We make it work somehow." That was said, the male engineer felt a huge relief, he had just started or hoped they has just started a new part of his life and with the woman who was, well perfect for him. Her strength and courage of character, her care and compassion towards Serenity, how could he not have care and love for this woman.  

Thoughts of sweeping away the items on the bench they sat on and having her in his arms crossed his mind. But that would be dangerous and a little stupid on base. Des had pointed out that they would have to be carefull. The had to talk about that, and now seemd like a good time. "I know we'll have to be careful, the last thing I'd want to do is put you at risk 'specialy with all you've come through to get to here. Thats the last thing I would want. Serenity too, I guess any risk to you is a risk to her. The engineer knew from spending time with Destiny over the years just how important Serenity was to the pilot. [/I]"Speaking of the little lady, do you reckon she'll react well to you and me being an item?"[/b]While it was not a deciding factor in the relationship it was a good idea to gauge how much 'winning over' would have to be done, if any.  

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[Destiny 'Silverwing' Andre]

1537
Stargate Command
Colorado
Earth

Destiny wanted to pinch herself. This was happening. This was all really happening. The heart was racing so many beats per minute. Hearing James' words, I love you, it took all the self control the major had not to tackle him. He loved her. He really loved her. After countless years of wondering, day dreaming, praying, the deepest fantasies were coming true. This wasn't a dream. This wasn't her getting lost in thoughts. At this moment, they were finally confessing their deepest feelings; feelings that two military personnel shouldn't have. The pilot knew that this was a dangerous path to be walking down. The consequences were numerous. If anyone found out, well, Destiny never wanted to find out. At the same time, the brunette couldn't picture life without the man before her. Now, now she had to chance to be with him in a whole new way; a way she had dreamed about for years. Destiny gave James' hand a tight squeeze, biting the bottom lip, words escaping her. Glancing over at the door, the young woman took a small breath, inching closer to the engineer. It was dangerous to be this close while on base. Someone could walk in at any time, but with the confession that just occurred, it was hard not to jump him. Thank god the military had taught this female self control. "I really hope we can. I wish there were more moments like these because life always seems more simpler like this. No command. No rules. Just you and me. I get the feeling I'm going to start hating the military the deeper we go into this relationship." The pilot smiled, biting the bottom lip even harder. Relationship. They were officially in a relationship. It had been years since admitting this, but Destiny wanted to do a happy dance with the feelings that were coursing through the body right now.

Resting her head on his shoulder, Destiny nodded, rubbing the back of his hand with her thumb. "Actually, I can't picture my life without you in it either James. Why do you think I wanted us to remain friends after it didn't work out the first time. I can't stand the thought of losing Serenity, or you. You are just as important to me as she is. Even if I lose my job, I still have Serenity. She will always be my daughter because of those court papers. If I lose my job here, I could lose you too. That's a thought I never want to think about." It was the truth. The pilot had fallen too much in love with the engineer to ever think of life without him. She had gotten way to use to him over the years. He was her rock in a way that not many were. He had always been there for her; saw this female at her worse and never judged her. He knew exactly what to say and how to push her. If it wasn't for him, Destiny probably wouldn't still be in the military. She would have given up a long time ago if it wasn't for his friendship. He believed in her the way no one else did. That was something she never wanted to be without; ever. Hearing his comment about Serenity, the major chuckled sitting up for a moment. "She will be thrilled. She has always been our biggest fan. Always asking me when you and I are ever going to be together. You mean a great deal to her. I can hear her squealing in my head right now. I'm not the only person that will be happy with this new development." Destiny lifted the gaze to his, smiling softly before leaning up and giving him a quick peck on the cheek. They were taking a lot of risks right now, and that had to be the biggest one of them all, but at the same time, it didn't matter. She was happy and was going to show it as much as possible. Of course later she would show him even more when they were alone, but that was besides the point. All the pilot wanted to do was leave this place so she could really show him how happy she was. In due time, but patience was still never a virtue the major ever really learned; was still working on that one.

Tag:James Calmara

[James Calmara]

1538
Stargate Command
Colorado
Earth

Being attentive to Des and what she had to say was no real hardship for Calmara. The hard part was keeping the rush of feelings under control at this time. He knew full well if they were going to make a go of them being together. They would have to work out how things would work, when they were working together out there. He had to be business like in setting do's and don'ts. He was pleased that the other person in Destinys life would be shielded from the worst of fall out should they be discovered as being in a relationship. But also that she was routing for the pair, that was a good thing, maybe a family wasn't that far out of reach, but that was several giant steps ahead of them. Getting through the first deployment without anyone twiging they were together would be a chalenge. But destiny was worth any risk, even if they were caught hed find a way to see her.

He caught his breath when the pilots lips pressed against his cheek, both at the feeling it conveyed and the level of risk it took. He wanted to return the gesture, but somthing stoped him he couldn't not here not yet, this relationship and the rule breaking it involved was going to take some getting used to. Shhh.....your gonna get us caught." He cautioned playfuly with a chuckle in his voice, as he sliped his hand from hers and looped it round her shoulders pulling them closer than ever. As far as his inhibitions would let him go at the moment. "I got no personal day with this trip, but I want to take you out to dinner then we can talk freely work out how to handle this what we have now, when we're out there." He paused for a moment still holding Destiny close, as he mentaly worked through his shedule, a very full one at that. Before coming hed planed on spending time with the female. Now he was determined to find a way to spend as much time as possable. Shed waited for him, and now being honest with himself hed waited for the right time to be with her. That time was now. "Two days are full up, gonna be working late both days. But Thursday I got half the afternoon off and might be able to stretch it to the full afternoon. Does that work for you? Im thinking we should go for a place on the outskirts as well, might be over kill but I'd rather be overcautious at first." He suggested carefully, his feelings and reason fighting an internal battle at the moment, the match was a draw for the moment.

Tag Destiny 'Silverwing' Andre